News Flash: This is a new Maryam

When are you going to stop punishing me?

UFFFF, Give me a break for God’s sake!

Why do you people keep judging me for what I was?

Not what I am?

What’s wrong with you people?

Why cannot you accept that I’ve changed?

The whole world is based on change and transformation?

Revolutions are Change

For the better BTW (by the way)

USA would have never been the USA we know; the highest power ever, without its revolutionary war which paved the way to declaring its independence, on the 4th of July, 1776, a day they adopted as their national day, from Great Britain even taking away its power and series of occupations..

We are not discussing occupations here because simply it is irrelevant: D

My point is: Change is good

I am aware that every change is a revolution in itself

It is met with lots of NOs and lots of NO WAYs

Yet, why cannot you people tolerate my change?

People tolerated as well as admired the American Revolution, the French Revolution and even the Russian Revolution which constituted the USSR (Union of Soviet Socialist Republics); the Soviet Union; the communist system that destroyed most of the world and dissolved eventually

Macaroni was not my thing till recently; till I got married

Then, it became my passion in which I excelled the most

Same as my own self… what I am doing now or saying now was not my thing

Then, it became my passion in which I am excelling

Yes, I used to do so and so

Yes, I did things which I regret now

Not the worst regrets ever since I know for sure that:

The past makes the present and the present makes the future

What we were makes us what we are and what we are makes us what we will be

Back to the list of YESes!

Yes, I was so and so

I cannot actually list my faults since you cannot brag about them because:

First: I am not proud of them

Second: it is not religiously acceptable to kiss and tell about your mistakes; for fear that people may imitate you

So, simplest examples:

Yes, I used to listen to songs; not only few times a week, but on a regular basis

This is one thing I am not proud of, but is it actually wrong to stop doing it?!

Of course, not

Alhamdulillah that I am a whole-new Maryam…That’s one thing I am proud of

I am a nut mixture of alot of things, but I started to tend more to the one that determines my destiny, designed for me by Allah, the one that is based on my true instinct and the one that defines how I was originally and islamically raised

Why the heck if I started to tell someone about any of my transformed or changed ideas,or even discuss an opinion, which is opposing to the old Maryam,they attack me in an angrily-intonated voice:

“Who are you to advise me?”

“Is it the same Maryam we know?”

“Wake up! You are not qualified to preach us”

“It is not your right”

“Did you forget who you were?

Yes, who I was..I did not forget.. but this is not what I am now

What shall I do?

Shall I stop being opinionated?

Shall I stop telling anyone about any thing I believe in, if it is new or not Maryam-like for them?

Shall I be a silent devil; not defending the right or the righteous Allah-obeying ideas?

Shall I cut off all my relationships with my old friends or acquaintances I knew before my transformation?

Shall I go back to the way I was, when I was not half as ...... (good, may be) as I am now?

What satisfies you, PEOPLE?!!!

Just stop JUDGING, you are not eligible to judge me,!

(especially for what's passed)

No one is, Only ALLAH!

Accept it! This is a new me

News Flash: This is a new Maryam

Accept it or Get lost!